Art by Lora Zombie

 

I’m currently reading When the Body Keeps the Score, as well as learning as much as I can about both Internal Family Systems Therapy  and The Polyvagal Theory . I’m finding so much good information and am applying a lot of it to my personal journey and self-healing.

Things are really hard in my life right now, and I’m struggling to do things a little differently this time around. In the past I’d have just crawled into bed with snacks and a remote and watched my world explode around me.  Today I’m trying to keep growing and moving instead of freezing and dissociating.

I’m really ready to start living my life instead of surviving it.

I’m going to be doing some serious exploration of my Protective Parts (managers/firefighters) as well as doing regular relaxation/connection exercises, because I’m having some trouble letting enough of my armor down to do this work with my therapist, and I think letting him in to help guide SELF to do this work will really help me.

The Polyvagal Theory.

This is a pretty decent video.

I’m watching lots of videos and reading lots of articles about The Polyvagal Theory working toward having a better understanding.

 

“love is a verb Love is a doing word”*

I’m still learning this.

 

My healing process involves a lot of time spent trying to convince myself that people and life outside of my home are safe for me emotionally, and that the emotional risk of liking and trusting people will not destroy me, even if I get rejected.

 

The Polyvagal Theory and Other Bits.

So, I’ve decided to use this blog mainly to post links to articles/videos/studies/podcasts etc related to understanding trauma and learning how to manage trauma . I’ll include a little commentary with each post, and I’ll occasionally include a little bit of my own personal life and thoughts.

 

The polyvagal “ladder” and how it can help you

 

A Bud Emerges.

I believe it is now time to start using this blog again; however, I also believe it’s time to completely reinvent it. I am still interested in health, wellness and spiritual/personal growth, but many of the ways I approach them have changed.

I’ve gotten married, gone back to school, had a couple of long term jobs, made a bunch of life decisions and well, moved forward and back on my path toward wholeness